I just woke up. Supposed to be i have class today, midterm is coming but I just can't feel it anymore. I need to take some rest. I need to have some space. I don't want to go to school for now. I need to have new habits. I need to be somewhere else. I need to have motivations. I need to cry. I need to pause life for now just to cope up on everything that happened in the past few days. I want to travel. I want to forget. I really need to decide what'll be the next step in myself. This is very crucial.
By the way, here's my buddy who never left me in this desperate hours of mine. He's the best friend I know but he doesn't want to be called my 'best friend' for he said whenever he calls a person his best buddy, few months or weeks later, they will have a big fight ending up in 'friendship over' thingy. I guess he's right, happened to me not just once but many times. My so called best friends turned into best enemies. So I guess, I wouldn't call him one. Haha!