I went through a lot of bullying and stuff in high school because I wasn't like the pretty kid in high school but at the same time I also went through a lot of sexual abuse and stuff like that, from previous boyfriends. Between that and now being gay it's been a ride.
I actually spiraled into a lot of depression in high school and after, I kind of got out of that funk. I actually had a really good boyfriend for about 3 years. He actually encouraged me to do Harley Quinn. He's my ex now, unfortunately. I fell out of love with him. I actually fell in love with another girl.
But going from being depressed and finding something that made me happy gave me the confidence. Before I would have never worn something like this. I would've said no I’m too fat, I’m too ugly, my body is oddly shaped or something like that. And now I've found so much confidence in doing this hobby that I've even got my own Facebook page and I've got thousands of followers on Instagram. It's cool. I found something that actually works for me. I want to make a career out of it, honestly.
Harley Quinn was the Jokers girlfriend. She has so much confidence in herself and she actually stood up to her abuser on several occasions and left her abuser. In one of the comics she said “You know what I decided?, no one is going to lay a hand on me again”. And being that I have gone through the abuse, sexual and physical, the idea that no one is ever going to lay a hand on me again… that confidence that I'm going to kick your ass if you touched me gives me so much willpower and strength. For her to go from this pathetic, getting thrown around all the time... She actually has a doctor degree, Dr. Harley Quinn.
But she fell love with the Joker. She took the Joker’s shit for so long. It was a very abusive and toxic relationship and now she's grown out of that and she's doing her own thing. She's part of the Suicide Squad now and it's just really cool.
I have my stuffed animal in my bag right now actually. I don't go anywhere without it. I even named it Snowflake because it came from someone so special to me. He's just so unique. He's got this little expression on his face. He helps with my anxiety. If I get depressed or upset I kind of take him and hold onto him and say "it's OK, don't be upset". Worst comes to worst at the end of the day he'll make me feel better
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