When can you totally say “I have had enough”?
It has been quite a while… I said to myself. I am used of the pain that kills me every single day knowing I never had any value in your life. I am used of getting cold treatment every time I see your blank face whenever you see mine. I am used of getting unnecessary stories of how bad, useless and unworthy I was when you had me. I am used of all the dramas you’ve shown in front of many people just for you to earn their attention. It seems that every time I think of you, the feelings I really value starting to fade away. Why is it so hard for you to exert an effort to make me feel special? Why even in a single minute you never see my worth while I am fooling myself that you are my world? I gave you everything you asked for but why it seems that talking to me, clearing every dirt we have in our friendship seems to be in your last priority? Or should I say never in your priority list. Why is this world so unfair? How can I stop caring for someone who never seems to care? Please give me video clips from Youtube, articles from Wikipedia or even books just for me to have a basis of how fool I am right now. Why am I still writing this? Why are you still in my head? Get off! Please, I don’t want you here in my head. I had enough of crap already, I am begging you please leave me alone.