I feel like I'm so used to people asking me to go out that when nobody does, I feel all shitty inside. I was going crazy this morning when no one was responding to me. Like, literally no one. And I guess I'm being selfish but I really wanted someone to help console me after a shitty conversation with my ex. But at the same time, I really don't want to rely on others to support my happiness. I know company's nice every once in a while, but for the most part I love being alone. I just hate it when I don't want to be alone and the universe forces me too. Maybe it's for the best anyway. I should be okay with it.