Signs I Continue to Ignore
I continue to fight my love for Elbows. She continues to extract it from me at any moment she thinks it's not present. I continue to tell myself I have no place. She continues to push away. She wants my passive aggressive love. I ignore her passive aggressive signs.
"She wants me to have another baby. But she doesn't know I have stipulations. It has to be Watson's sperm," she says. I know it's coming. I hope I don't wince. "And I have to fuck him. And that's exactly what she doesn't want. Me, fucking a guy. Let alone Watson, regardless of the fact he doesn't want kids and he has good genes."
I fight the urge to shudder at the thought of her having revenge sex with my best friend. Sadly, he'd totally do it. Offer or no offer, I have no doubt in my mind my best friend would fuck her if he had the chance. That's probably another sign I'm ignoring.
She posts a meme this morning on the SNAP. About how a woman needs that best guy friend to make them smile when they don't think they ever will. Yeah. This morning, friend zone. This afternoon, she sends me a selfie of her. Turns out it's the most beautiful she's looked in months. Ignoring all signs, I tell her how lovely she looks.