PRESENT: I came home from work and smoked a shitload of weed today. I haven't done this for almost 15 years. And you know what? I don't give a fuck what you think about that. I work my ass off, I pay my bills on time, I have a fucking flawless credit score, I've never killed anyone...fuck it. I dropped a $20 on a baggie of dank shit. It was MY hard earned $20 and it's legal where I live - like liquor, cigarettes and porn, which I don't spend money on.
Because you know what? I hate this world. No wait, allow me to rephrase that - I hate what this world has become, what we've done to it, and there's nothing I can do to fix it. And sometimes, the despair is so thick and dark, it's really difficult to come up with good reasons for getting out of bed in the morning.
So I smoked my brains out. I watched reruns of MST3k and SNL and laughed my ass off. I ate tacos. And now I'm going to sleep well, and late. Night shift tomorrow, which I will show up on time for, unstoned and focused, and work hard, as I always do, because I have a fucking work ethic.