Back story: about a year ago I did a performance piece for my material studies class. My piece was about PTSD and the affects it has on the people it plagues. For my piece I triggered a panic attack by re-enacting a scenario that I know have PTSD from. For my piece I had 8 still images I took of myself having a panic attack to go with the performance, partly because it was required for the assignment and partly because the room was almost pitch black to help me focus on the situation. The photos above were just for fun. I was practicing my SFX make up and I wanted to do self portraits (since I guess that’s my thing now). But the last time I did long exposure self portraits for that assignment. While I was editing these I noticed a lot of the same behavior and movement from those photos a year ago. While I was shooting I think I subconsciously went back to that night a year ago when I did this before. These photos had a whole new meaning when I noticed what I did. And I didn’t even know I did it.
Or I suppose you could just see them as the black and white self portraits I intended them to be.
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