My heart is jumping through hoops in anticipation for this potential thursday date with the glass flower girl. I am so very crazy. I want this to be the girl I sought all my life yet I must be careful. I am not a normal guy. I never ran around sleeping with every girl I could find. I always found a girl I saw rare beauty in and went headfirst into relationships loving and romancing with neat little ideas. I.E. -While I was in a long distance relationship years ago I would visit twice a month and leave little pieces of paper that said "I miss you" everywhere around her house, in her jewelry box, kitchen drawers, invisible glow in the dark paint on top of her TV in her bedroom. I left so many over the course of 6 months that when I moved in with her she was still finding them 4 years later while we lived together. I was even out of town for a few days when she found one and it almost saved our relationship. I don't let romance die but I have this belief now at 30 years of life that romance dies in all relationships no matter what I try to do. The death of romance in my relationships has never been my fault Yet I hope this girl is going to prove that belief wrong. To me Hope is the most foul four letter word. I will elaborate on that in my next post. For now though I am struck by my own heart's beat. Wary, Wishful, and Worried... I am the lover of love.