Has is occurred to anyone that the safer you feel the closer you are to danger. I live my life by this and I feel mostly pain, I hope someday I will no longer feel as I do. I hope that love actually exists for a soul like mine How many of us think these thoughts daily and pine for a purpose as we drone onward miserably. Even those who entertain happiness lack fulfillment. What is it we are supposed to do when you figure it all out and force yourself to feel the joys you've gained when in truth you don't actually feel the joy of fulfillment the one joy you really want even need in life seems to evade you and I myself have always been looking and looking and I have never found and people tell me to stop looking and let it find you except the problem in today's world is no one is looking for people in real life only in digital life on websites and social media so they don't have to leave their comfort zones and here I am wishing someone would seek me out in the real world really get to know the darkness which is me because my darkness is beautiful it is what drives my passion and longing as it should ever one but so few admit it exists. I hope to one day live in a world where people do not judge one another for the mistake of a past. I am judge wrongfully every day for my tarnished name and I know the truth but no one wants to ask me for it they just figure fuck it lets assume and believe whatever we want without the facts. So again fuck you people keep reading keep judging keep dying inside ever minute you sit in front of your machines. If I could leave my home right now and something better than this I'd have been gone. If you one day stop seeing posts from me its cause I've finally died or found some thing worth all of my time.