Had my first meeting at the pain clinic. Talked to a therapist that didn't piss me off instantly. So that was nice. And I felt like I was having my medical issues taken seriously and my opinions about my care were welcome. That's a change. I will have to see a therapist for a while as we suss out all the nooks and crannies. They have pt on site as well as a DO and a couple hippies who use yoga and meditation and acupuncture for pain management.
I'm not cheerful or happy - not in the slightest. But maybe I am one step convincing myself and others that I am done. I have given in to a lot of unwanted realizations. And I sm just done for a bit. Time to lick the wounds and feel a little tired.