It's not the writer that you want to be. Trust me.
It's not the writing that you want to do. Trust me.
Being a writer is profession that comes after your death, until that happens, you're just another crazy guy with a handbook and a pen.
Being a writer starts when you're approximately 50 years old, because until then no one really takes you seriously, nor your words.
And words can be hard.
Like burden on your shoulders - words on your mind.
You start writing for yourself. You're excited.
They ask you what are you doing, and you're hiding it like a shameful disease, which it is.
Time passes by. You're getting more comfortable with it.
They ask you what are you doing, but you're still hiding it like a shameful disease, which it is.
Time flies away. Year after year.
People got used to it seeing you with your handbook and a pen.
They're not even bothering to ask anymore, but by that time - you care about your words.
You want to be heard.
You want to be topic of their conversation, you want your writings to be topic of their conversation.
You care - but you won't admit it.
How many times you said truth through your jokes?
How many times you just wished she could read your mind, so you don't have to say your words out loud?
How many times have you watched her when she's not aware of it, stretching your lips into a smile wishing you could just freeze that moment?
There's a lot of things you won't admit it, but it'll punish you on it's own way.
Admit it and you'll feel better.
Ahead or dead, but you'll know where you are.
It's always better to be wounded than to be dead.
It's always better to let it go than to prolong your agony, because agony is even worse than being dead.