Do you ever wake up in the middle of the night, while having this frightening clarity that everything is but a scheme, that everybody is living a lie and in that lie they are hiding all their real questions and worries only to lengthen this dream of theirs called life maybe to wake up at death? Where do we come from? how come we exist? What are we here for? and to what end do we continue living? Strings being pulled, mirages in the making, emotions excited and reasons unfathomably at work, for us to be everything but centered in the heart. My partial realization of the truth tells me that there's more to something so obvious, that is looking me in the face, all I have to do is look away, and there it is, but such a feat requires an ego-less me, and while I'm me impossible that is. I realized this morning how fast I came to be friends with death, fast forward you embrace it forcefully, whether you like it or not so why not step out of your comfort zone? My comfort zone I found are the weaknesses that stop me from action, I know because I caught my mind red handed. All for what? What happens when you push yourself to insanity? do you lose it or is that just an idea stopping you from realizing the truth, "you are what you are", no matter what, you have already made the choice but are in the process of becoming aware of it, every moment, time after time, you are living choices made while flowing in the now, but your light is skipping it focusing on spots devoid of what is, only to find remnants of the dead, animating through memories of the past and the future. I remember me as a kid, questions would arise in the small mind of mine, and I would reach this wall, but couldn't find the answer and couldn't go any further, stopping there realizing the true nature of words. I know now that answers are waiting for the right questions to be asked and beyond that there's nothing to be said.
Truth cannot be told, it must be lived through silence.
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Art by Hasui Kawase