My Darling Elle,
I'm glad to hear the darkness didn't last as long this time, but I did notice you didn't answer my question. It's easier to come up with solutions to problems when you are not in the middle of an emotional meltdown. If you know what the problem is you can plan how to react next time it occurs.
As for my website...It's not going anywhere. I've written some things but I am never happy with the way it looks and so if I ever have large chunks of time I am searching for a solution, but even when I think I've found one I don't implement it. I'm not happy with the things I've written either and none of them are complete. It's so hard to find the time.
On Friday during my lunch hour instead of working on it I read part of Snow Flower and the Secret Fan. The evil whispers said "It's Friday, you'll have plenty of time tonight after you finish the book." The angel on the other shoulder reminded me that it would still be Friday in the evening and so I would still be making that excuse. I said that I wouldn't but the angel was right. The whispers say, "You'll have plenty of time on the weekend." Even though it almost never works out that way. Everyone wants a piece of my time on the weekend and they deserve it. I've got to be engaged and pay attention to make up for all the times I was too drunk to care. We all have our demons.
In spite of the lack of progress, I've done some planning and I feel better about it.