crazy people! check out THE DICTIONARY OF OBSCURE SORROWS
for fantasically tongue-trippy words like ALTSCHMERZ, which is what i have been feeling re: the frustrations of trying to connect with readers.
(n.) weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had—the same boring flaws and anxieties you’ve been gnawing on for years, which leaves them soggy and tasteless and inert, with nothing interesting left to think about, nothing left to do but spit them out and wander off to the backyard, ready to dig up some fresher pain you might have buried long ago.
or ZENOSYNE, which i almost wrote about this morning. (the days are going faster. how do i slow them down? someone? please??)