Today's photo. My morning view while journaling. Seen through a dusty car window. Rather fitting, as everything that's still becoming feels real, but looks hazy. Although in this literal case, hindsight wasn't 20/20, as the rear window is even dustier. The inside is sparkling though. We can only hope that's true of my inside as well.
Today, the boss saw my headphones (I was listening to some lectures on YouTube) and told me, kindly, that he preferred I not listen to music in the office. Since everyone else does too, he made a new blanket rule.
It wasn't too upsetting, as I've already decided to segue at least partially out of there sooner rather than later. But I found myself slightly disappointed. I must have been looking for reasons to stay. To jump in whole-heartedly. But all information is good information.
I've never, in my post-academic years, and (even pre, it was only couple of front desk positions where it was obvious it wasn't appropriate) worked anywhere that I couldn't listen to music. At least over headphones, usually in my own office with a door. So this not being allowed isn't for me. I need to remain unfettered, to do my best work, my way.
I genuinely respect his right to run his company as he sees fit. But I can see more and more that I'm not a good fit. Not in it's present form. But we already knew that, didn't we? So it's no big deal; and there's the added benefit of never hearing B's God-awful easy listening music again. Yes, there's that to look forward to.
Also this morning, my boss was inconvenienced by my computer crashing and is having the head office get me a new one. See? Many things to like about the guy. Many things to like about this perfect in its imperfection opportunity to hone my navigational skills.
I'm keeping my eyes open, starting to reach out to contacts (lunches and coffees set up) but content to enjoy what I'm doing now. Looking at all the things I like about my workplace, knowing that everything changes. Finally, expecting the best. I'm running towards the future. As unafraid as I can make myself be. Excited about what further adventures life holds for me. Onwards.