I must be beloved by the Universe. My debit card arrived, my phone started working again, and I met with a business acquaintance who has a solid proposal to work with me as the owner rep for a portfolio of development projects that are well underway.
So look, I happen to believe that there's more to this existence than we see with our five senses, but even if I didn't, I would still stick with the plan to expect everything to work out. Today (and yesterday) had a number of things that I could have spent a lot of time future tripping over. Or remembering all the times in the past when things didn't work out. Though to be perfectly honest, I'd be remembering all the times in the past when I spent a lot of time and energy worrying that things wouldn't work out, but then they did. They always do. Or you're dead, suffering from debilitating disease, or in jail. But even those things might not be so bad. I don't know, I haven't tried them.
My ultimate goal is to step outside the mundane and ordinary, and find joy and magic in life. In my meditation this morning, and throughout the day, I felt light, as in, not weighed down with worry or resentment. I want to focus on consciously creating my reality. I want to make something, then make something else. A continuous cycle of creation and dissolution. I have a learned tendency to focus on what could go wrong. So I'm living in some difficult, disastrous future that's just an endless slog, even when my present is just fine.
Today, I decided to live in exactly the present. What? Need $200 to replace my phone? I don't have the money, no idea where it will come from. I just decided to be curious about how that would resolve itself. I'd already made a claim on my insurance and expected to have to wait a few days to get the phone (long story). For some reason, I decided to plug my phone into my car charger. I'd been trying to get some response from my phone for the last few days. It was only when I let go of the "how" that my phone suddenly started working. Of course, it dried out after several days. Sure, it could easily be coincidence. But who's to say coincidence isn't just serendipity for doubters?
Anyway, I could have ruined my nice, sunny coffee conversation with this person who's very likely going to further my dreams of returning to development. I was present for that conversation. And it went very well. And then after that, I casually decided to check my phone one last time. I'm so glad I didn't waste any time thinking about the bad potential future. My day would have sucked for no reason, because all that stuff that could go wrong was all in my head. And I didn't make room for it. It died a sad, lonely death, and I'm okay with that.