Sad news at the barn today. One of the horses, Nike, colicked and died on Friday. He was only 14. Prime of life for a horse. His owner must be distraught. As she told me, she never had children, so her horses are her "kids." She lost one of her horses of age-related complications a couple of years ago. But that's to be expected. It's these sudden attacks that are so shocking. RIP, Nike. You were an asshole to all the other horses, and most people, but you were beloved by one.
Then I hear that Daniel, the Clydesdale, only 4 years old (a baby still in horse maturity) is at UC Davis. His trainer was riding him on trail this week and he spooked, and somehow fell down the ravine and into the creek. Depending on where he fell, that's 15-20 feet. There's a lot of underbrush and trees, which would have broken his fall somewhat, but however he fell, he somehow he got stuck there. He couldn't get up. It took a rescue crew 6 hours to lift him out.
He didn't break anything, and was walking after he got out. But when they got up in the morning and checked on him, he was down in his stall. It took another 6 hours for the rescue crew to disassemble the stall walls (still down today) and cart him off to the hospital. There, they found internal bleeding from the fall. He's in critical condition. Such a sweetheart. I'm sending all of my good thoughts towards his recovery. It's touch and go right now.
And oh yeah, his trainer got taken away in an ambulence. Pretty bad fracture of the ankle, but she'll live. Riding accidents are a hazard of the sport, but still, rough. It's always worse when the horse is injured or killed too.
Okay, on to the good stuff. I had a client today. Non-paying, as she's a fellow horsewoman interested in the stuff I'm doing, and the easiest way to understand it is to have a session.
For the first time ever, I was completely relaxed and not worried about outcome. She'd either like it or not. Having a day job for now really made all the difference. (Plus, all that meditation and working though my "stuff".) With that financial support, I can stop feeling pressure to have it all go well, enjoy the process, and let people take from it what they will. There's no pressure at all. Just a sincere desire to show people how powerful they can be when they really know themselves.
Great feedback. All positive. I'm inspired to start actively putting myself out there for paying clients. One or two on a weekend once or twice a month. Easy. No rush. Fun!
I felt perfectly calm. In response to her comments, I was able to share what I've learned. Same as I do here. She actually seemed to get something beneficial from my sharing. At least she told me that.
Just being myself and showing people my process is so wonderful for me. I don't tell people what they should think. I merely listen, and if it seems they'd like to hear my thoughts, I tell them by sharing what I've learned, and how I've worked through some of my issues. Everything flowed so effortlessly.
Could it be that I have something to offer the world? That would be fabulous! And if my work isn't a good fit for someone, that's okay too. Really it is. But many people seem to really enjoy this and gain value from it.
Time to kick it up a notch and see where this thing goes.