Ha! I just realized that I had my official two-year sobriety anniversary three days ago. I totally forgot! I don't forget I don't drink. Not drinking has become a habit now. I have a million different things to think about besides not drinking. Focusing on those things has been key. I have a lot of interests. Drinking used to be one of them. Now it's not.
I've always refused to add "alcoholic" to my list of character traits. While it's certainly a true thing about me, it's not "who I am." It's not any kind of a definition of me any more than the fact the I like flowers, or the color blue.
I very rarely go to recovery meetings these days. If I have some free time, there are many other ways I prefer to spend it. I don't think, after a certain point, that it's beneficial to me to keep going to meetings and self-flagellating and telling myself that I have a problem that I need to keep an eagle eye on. Better to keep my focus on all the wonderful things that come along with not being drunk all the time.
That being said, I am very grateful to the local recovery community for being there my first year of solid sobriety. So I would like to continue to stay somewhat involved, and hopefully help others by sharing my journey with them and supporting them in their own recovery efforts.
I aways knew it was possible, and sorting through everything that "made" me reach for a bottle was a lot of work. Way harder than I thought. But, naturally, even more rewarding than I believed it could be.
Happy 2nd birthday to me.