I am so happy and excited this morning! No particular reason, except that all of the meditation, journaling, and focusing on the tasks at hand work-wise (excellent distraction from a sometimes, okay, most of the time, too busy mind) is paying off, big-time.
I'm no longer my own worst enemy. I still encounter the shackles of attachment sometimes. To people, outcomes, etc., but for the most part, I notice a solid core of inner-stillness that knows that all is well, and getting even better.
My boss gave me a heads up this week that the portfolio I'm at will be going through a "transition." Thank you Sweet Baby Jesus! This is why they kept me a temp, knowing they may not be able to offer me a position there (that opportunity might go to their partner.) After all this time resenting being a temp (working through that was very helpful, spiritually and emotionally speaking), a friend pointed out to me that because I was employed by a temp agency, rather than self-employed, I'm eligible for unemployment payments.
I've paid into that since I was a teenager (you know employers factor it into what they offer for wages), and never once drawn on it. This could be my time! Oh, the joy of not having to worry about my boss's moods, yet still be able to pay the bills.
I've been applying for other jobs, as I genuinely enjoy working again; even if this particular position has turned out to be more of a clarifying experience than a forever job. I have to keep applying as a condition of receiving unemployment benefits, but since it's what I'd do anyway, it's no biggie. How soon can I start!
I've also started paying attention to my breathing. I have a tendency to either stop breathing altogether or to generally breathe very shallowly. All of this oxygen flooding my system probably helps my mood too.
I don't know how it's going to all play out. I just know it's all going my way. What could possibly go wrong? Best not to think of that! I shall maintain my happy mood and my optimism.