Today was fascinating.
I started out feeling centered and unworried; and looking forward to spending the day being appreciative of where I was, while still knowing there was more that I wanted.
All went swimmingly. I had a meeting with my boss and a co-worker. I could feel the waves of tension crashing all around me, but earlier in the day I'd had a vision/feeling of myself being in the midst of a sheltered place of calm water. In that meeting, the same feeling and vision came back. I was actually able to relax into the feeling, accept that others in the room may not be in that calm place, and not feel disturbed by imagining what others were going to do or how they were going to be. I felt perfectly safe, even exhilarated. Like watching a storm from a warm safe place.
It was a fine, productive meeting. I'm starting to believe that staying in my lane can help potentially explosive situations diffuse.
Later that day. I witnessed an on-going to-do with a customer over the course of a few hours. I could have stepped in and resolved it, but a couple of my co-workers had ideas of how they wanted to handle it. I let them. Untroubled by any thoughts about how I would do it differently. (I would have, but didn't feel like I needed to fix it for them. They didn't want it fixed anyway. Long story.)
Everywhere I went I got awesome parking spaces.
On the way home, I got a call from my ex that, unbeknownst to us (we both missed the email) my son had a school performance tonight. I quickly scuttled my plans for going to the barn, went to Target to buy black pants and a black shirt for the little guy, and made it to the performace hall with 15 minutes to spare. And my son didn't have to wear his plaid Bermuda shorts and brown shirt while everyone else in his class wore black.
I had money to buy the clothes without stressing over $23.
Afterwards, my ex and I discovered a miscommunication where he thought he was only taking the kids Friday night this weekend. He had unmoveable plans (they genuinely were) for Saturday. After some initial alarm (I was really looking forward to a chance to go to the barn, etc, solo) I parlayed that into dropping the kids off early on Sunday so I could go to the barn in the late afternoon. (Mr. Jones gets ridden Saturdays by the woman who's leasing him.) I also now have the next two weekends free. Then back on schedule.
I realized after that warm debate was resolved, that we're supposed to have a really warm to hot weekend. I wouldn't have wanted to go to the barn mid-day anyway. Hello pool. Perfect for hanging with the kiddos, now that they both swim really well. I can read and chillax, without feeling a need to keep eyes on my son every second. Now I'm really excited about a fun weekend with the kids!
So, I started and ended the day with equanimity, with a good deal of it seeing me through the day as well. These thought exercises I've been practicing are really paying off. Better than yoga, or meditation because I can do them anywhere, in any situation. (Though often they feel like meditation.)
I'm going to be the coolest customer in town before you know it.