So today, my boss told me he doesn't want me working from home, even when I can't come to work because of a sick child. (Though he appreciated that I was getting things done.) He's definitely old-school. Suit and tie every day, etc.
You know, it's okay. I think about all the things I like about this job. The work isn't the kind you lose sleep over, it's giving me an opportunity to ease back into the working world and get used to putting in a full day's work. The discipline has been really good for me. I'm getting all kinds of ideas of what I'd like to bring into my experience. I have great co-workers. My office is bright and confortable. It's close to home.
There are many things I like. But I notice myself panicking when I see things I don't like. As if I'm trapped there forever and seeing my future. But really, I know I won't be there forever. All things change. Maybe even to the point I stay with my current company. I'm working right now on enjoying the new (again) experience. I'm learning a lot about myself and my reactions in this environment.
Some things, like not wanting to be constrained by things like a clock, have always been something most of my bosses have been on me about. Once they get to know me though, they settle down. I do good work, and I work the the number of hours they're paying for. I never lie about that.
I don't know if he'll ease up. I don't mind one way or another. As I think about the progression of jobs from two years ago to now, I can see how they all led to this more steady position. And this one will lead to the next opportunity.
I have an idea I'm kicking around. I'm not even going to hint about it. It's still in the dreaming stage. But I know exactly how to go about realizing it once I've developed it more.
In the meantime, this job is a good place to be at this particular time. Breathe and hold space forfor what's to come. That's my only real job now.