I was coming back to the office from an errand, when these flowers caught my attention. I sat for 15 minutes and listened to music while I enjoyed the beautiful late spring day.
Work was great. I felt light and happy. Nothing felt like a problem or unpleasant. I had a few uncomfortable moments around my boss; never knowing what he's going to do. He was fine. But more importantly, I was fine. I did feel uneasy. But I'm trying very hard to simply observe, and not make his moods, good or bad, part of my experience. I just noticed the feeling and acknolwedged it was there, without trying to get away from it,
It was fine. But I was glad to get out of the room. It really helps that I know this is temporary. Somehow, making that firm desicion to move on for the right opportunity makes everything easier. I'm not as attached to needing him to be a certain way. Notice I didn't say not attached. I'm still working on it.
But all in all, today was delightful, for no reason other that I felt delighted. With life. With everything I've experienced and hope to experience.
I had a great lunch meeting with someone I met at a fundraiser. This meeting was in furtherance of the equine experiential learning work. It felt wonderful to be moving forward on that.
Tonight, I rented a movie for the kids and we watched it while they ate pizza and I dealt with the laundry. (No, didn't fold it. Never.) Afterwards I got the kids in bed, set up the coffee-maker for tomorrow and took my dog out for a walk. It's quite breezy, to the point of being downright windy. But not cold.
I grew up in the Columbia River Gorge, where an average east wind blows 30-40mph steadily, with gusts up to 60 or higher. It's windy. (No branches on the east side of the trees!)
I revel in wind. I love the way it clears all the cobwebs off my psyche. It always makes me feel clean and free. I remember galloping my horses as fast as I could, riding bareback through the fields on windy fall days. And the comfort of my cozy bed in the winter, with the frozen rain clattering down outside.
Windy days remind me of how great it is to be on this planet, right here, right now. The wind catches your thoughts, takes them with it, while it tells you to pay attention to the present. The wind constantly harrasses you for attention, until it's impossible to think about anything but each moment after moment. The Earth forces you into meditative awareness. Whether you like it or not. I like it.