I spent a lot of time shuttling kids around this weekend. Thank God lacrosse season is over, and baseball will be too in a couple of weeks. This weekend didn't give me a ton of time to think, which was great. We also had a lot of fun.
Had company last night for dinner. He insisted on folding my laundry. I hadn't had a chance to wash clothes until early evening, as we were in and out of the apartment all day, with no solid block of time to do it. Best Mother's Day present ever. Laundry is the bane of my existence. I can hardly wait to send it out to wash-n-fold.
Today we went out for dim sum. (M came too.) My favorite brunch food, hands-down. But it's really high in carbs, so we haven't been in ages. I feel gross, but happy. I've lost 40 pounds in the last 6 months. I can afford a day of carb-laden food. Back in the saddle tomorrow. Totally worth the calculated diet splurge.
I decided to continue this weekend's theme of not over-thinking anything this week. I'm going to let go of worry over anything, or even of wanting something different. I'm going to focus on my tasks, and think only of those things that bring me joy. And every time I find myself reacting from an off-center place, I'm going to think about puppies. Seriously.
I'm going to appreciate all of my experiences, because even the ones I don't like are showing me that: a) I'm bringing something to the table that's allowing this to show up, and b) seeing what I don't want clarifies what I do want.
But hanging on to any of that won't help. I'm going to look for something to like about everything, and if all else fails, puppies. The most important thing this week is that I feel good. The only one who has any control over how I feel about anything is me. That means I can't allow whatever anyone else does to inform how I feel in any given moment.
I think this will be one of my most challenging, but beneficial, thought exercises yet. I'll tell you how it goes.