S brought up something in the meeting tonight I've been thinking too. I first started this whole recovery process two years ago this week. I honestly feel like a completely different person than the one I was then. A lot of it's happened in the last eight months, when I finally decided to start taking this seriously. You know, he's been such a big part of it. Even though I'm sad he feels the way he does about me, (However that is. I actually only know he doesn't want to talk to me.) I'm so glad to have met him. I still feel just as much affection for him as I ever have. I only avoid him out of respect for his wishes. (I did sit next to him tonight because it was the most convenient seat.) Something happened with his job. I don't know anything more than that. He very much didn't want to say anything about it at all to me. Honestly, I hope he's out of that place. He's such a wonderful person. (OK, I'll admit, I don't love everything he does.) He deserves to work in a place where he's respected and appreciated. Instead, it sounds more like a battleground. I don't know how he does it. How can he live most of his waking hours like that? We were laying in bed one morning, and he said all he was thinking of was his boss. (I was rather hoping he was thinking about sex, but I guess not. And I was in a completely different place then. Now, I would just have suggested it. Doesn't hurt to try, right?) Anyway, I digress. I really would have liked to work with him as we once talked about. He has such a bright and shiny way about him, with just the right amount of darkness. I think he would have been great at it. But he never seemed as though he wanted to pursue it, so I dropped it and started working with others. Whatever is happening, I hope he's on a path away from that toxic environment. Life is too short to waste on assholes. There's my trite but true thought of the day.