I broke up with my sponsor today. It was entirely amicable. I like her a lot. But as I've started trying out different meetings, I'm finding that a sponsor who's more into the atheist/agnostic meetings would give me a different perspective; one that's already allied with my natural inclinations. I think it will be fun to explore a new way of looking at the program. She wasn't remotely offended or upset. We had a nice friendly chat. She really helped me when I got serious about this whole sobriety thing. She was perfect for what I needed at the time.
I also took my son riding. He's getting more and more confident. The Mister isn't all that easy to ride. Even adults have trouble with him. He had some initial steering issues, then Mr. Jones started to take him seriously at last. We had fun.
I also unfollowed some of my relatives on FB. (None of my close ones, some I haven't even met.) I just couldn't take one more xenophobic post. I'm choosing to stay away from thinking about what I don't want, and instead focusing on what I do. And their posts were always just so shockingly unkind....it probably doesn't surprise anyone to learn that they're also the ones posting about how important their Christian faith is to them. Ugh. No more.
I'm doing a lot of somatic body awareness recently. Noticing my thoughts and then noticing how I feel in my body. If it feels good, keep in thinking! If not, I try to think about something else. I had to stop myself mid-complaint yesterday when I was visiting with M. Now she'll never hear the full story of how my ex wronged me. I don't consciously think angry thoughts, but I do notice myself feeling indignant. Better to think and speak about other things.
Of course, if a friend is having a rough time, I'm there, giving whatever support I can. But in general, I'm trying to notice only the things I want to see. How can you change your future if the only thing you notice is your present?
My basic premise. There's tons more on this, but it's late.