Today's photo. My toll money. I realized I had no cash, so I raided the change jar. The toll taker was not very gracious about it, even though I apologized in advance. I don't think I'd enjoy that job either though, so it's understandable.
I didn't get home until after midnight. I drove up to Vallejo to see a friend, stayed several hours, then went to a meeting and stayed almost an hour after to chat. Since Vallejo's, in my opinion, part of the greater Sacramento area, I had a lot of time during the drive there and back to think.
I notice that I have an unconscious assumption, that if I do what is the "right thing" to do, then I'll get rewarded for that. But consciously, I don't believe that's true. I think it's not whether whatever life choices I'm making are right or wrong for me, as determined by some unknown power, but whether or not I'm staying true to my core values and passions.
That's why I identify most closely, if I had to choose a life philosophy, with the secular humanists. People design their own fate. So you'd better be aware of exactly what you're designing, and how, or you'll never get what you want. Things will continue to go "wrong" and you'll have to go back to the drawing board. Not that that's inherently bad. There's always a lesson in there. Life is one long scientific experiment, and we can learn just as much from our failures as our successes.
Bad things happen to good people, and sometimes that's just the luck of the draw. But good things happen to good (and bad) people too, and that's not always merely luck of the draw. So how do I attract what I want? That's the question of the day. I have some ideas, but I'm waiting so see how they turn out. I'm still experimenting so I don't know how to put into words exactly what I see. This equine experiential learning venture should be a good way to learn both what I'm doing, and what effect it has on the overall gestalt of life.