This weekend I did nothing but relax into my little place in the universe. I watched a few Hallmark Christmas movies. All horrible, and I loved them all. They're safe to watch. You know everything's going to end happily ever after. I have no desire to watch anything that doesn't end that way.
Look, I know there are important issues that we all need to be informed about. But if I'm sitting down to watch some entertainment, I want to be entertained and distracted, not cast into gloom.
The kids and I had fun playing in the park, and M came over Saturday night for a nice long visit. I could have gone to a meeting tonight, but I caught up on the latest Doctor Who episodes instead.
I didn't even get to the barn. The kids really didn't want to go, so I'm not going to drag them. My son loves going with me, but he copies his sister a lot. So if she doesn't like something,he decides he doesn't either (in that moment, but reverts back when she's not looking.)
All in all, it was a lovely weekend full of nothing but hanging out and playing.
Next weekend I don't have the kids. I'm usually out and about more. It's nice to "have" weekends again. Endless days stretching out with no work sound fun, until you do it for a decade.
I never should have given in to my ex's demands and agreed to stay home with the kids for so long. My ex spent all that time furthering his career. I've had to work really hard to find a niche, even with my degree and prior experience. Thank God for the horses the last few years. They saved my sanity.
I'm like water trickling through stone; finding my way in this world by seizing the smallest opportunity, and following where it goes.
So tomorrow, back to work. Which actually I really enjoy. I'm going to find my own happy ending, no matter how implausible it seems.