Last night's sunset.
This weekend has been wonderful. It's lovely to see my friends again. (My two best friends from high school came to visit for a long weekend) They're so easy to be with! Although one of them keeps giving me shit about vaping. She does it because she cares, and I embrace that aspect of it. I just tell her to start loving and enjoying her life instead of worrying about all the things that could go wrong.
Along those lines....I was thinking about my horses the other day, and why it never seriously entered my mind to get rid of them, despite heavy pressure from certain areas. It boils down to this:
While I do believe this life is just a temporary pit-stop along an eternal highway; it is the only existence I'm currently fully immersed in and conscious of. If I waited for "someday" to have and do the things I love, I wouldn't be enjoying the ever-present now. I've spent waaaayyyy too much of my life living in "someday".
Someday only sometimes comes. It may never arrive. But "now" exists every single moment. It's my goal in life, as much and often as possible, to get every bit of enjoyment out of now that I can.
Having my horses enhances my now in a way that I fully enjoy. Now, now, and now. Forever or until it doesn't.
Life is short, but it doesn't need to be nasty and brutish (to paraphrase Thomas Hobbes). It's all a matter of perspective, will, and steely determination to be happy, dammit! I'm even willing to let go of fear, shame, guilt, blame and judgment in order to do it. I had no idea how "precious" these things were to me until I attempted to let them go. Getting there. The horses are a good example of my progress.
On with my day, and happy Sunday to you all.