I didn't have a lot of choices for photos. Mr. Jones blocks the sun.
As much as I enjoyed the holidays with the kids, it's been incredibly restful to have such a large block of time with no obligations. I did have a work lunch set up, which I went to and enjoyed. (Another lender who fits a niche I don't have right now. I think she'll be a great resource. I hope to bring her loans soon.)
I've done a lot of meditating, a lot of watching movies, not so much time with the horses. My heart just wasn't in it for some reason. But today I went after my work meeting and I'm so glad I did. I was thinking while I was there how much I love working with animals. They're so straightforward about everything. I'm still figuring out what to do with work. (Haven't heard about the job yet, I'm assuming I would have by now if I'd gotten it.) I have some ideas, but I'm trying to remain open to all kinds of possibilities. Now's a good time to explore without getting locked down into anything. Though I think I'll end up in real estate development. That was my favorite job ever. But I think I'll also begin seriously looking at the work with horses too.
I know how much it helps me to be out in nature and interacting with the horses. From my conversations with people a few months ago, there's a strong interest, and professional marketing and PR people have offered discounted rates and service trades to help me. Definitely something to move forward with now, however cautiously. Even typing this makes me smile.
Which is good. I watched the series finale of Haven tonight. Actually the final few episodes. I actually cried when they killed off one of the main characters. I've been into total escapism these last few days. I haven't gone to any meetings except one on Sunday that I like, as it's the only cross-talk one that's remotely convenient. I wish more meetings were like that. It reminds me of rehab. I miss though days. Though I don't miss those early struggles with sobriety.
I think I'm refreshed from my staycation. We'll find out tomorrow. Of course, I have New Years and the weekend, but it'll naturally be busy with the kids and all. So while I'm excited to see them, I've also absolutely loving doing whatever I want (work aside) for a few days.
I needed that. I've been under a lot of stress these last few months (years), and a big chunk of guilt-free mindlessness really helped clear a lot of junk from my psyche. Now, I'm excited to sleep, so I can wake up to coffee and meditating. It's the little things.