Tonight's sunset. I was thinking today about how different I am in some ways than two years ago. I used to have such anxiety around knowing what was going to happen. I needed to know in order to be happy. Or at least be able to brace myself for something I didn't like. (To be fair, I'd been through a lot.) As if that worrying and bracing are in any way going to fend off hurt. Actually, trying to run ahead of the "now" just made things worse. Or less to my liking anyway. These days, I can just be happy knowing what I know (which often isn't much), and letting the future reveal itself. Looking back at my behavior, I remember knowing that I needed to just relax and let things happen as they will, but I didn't know how to do that. So I missed out on a lot of the fun of the journey. Now I do. This is a much, much nicer place to be.