I finally got a commitment in the program tonight. My visiting friends were kind enough to take me out to dinner, then hang out downtown (drinking, ironically enough) while I went to LS.(Kids were with their Dad, unusual for a Monday.) I forgot this was a business meeting night. Then I heard there were a couple of commitments available for Thursday, the night I make a point of attending each week. I've been afraid that with the kids, etc, I wouldn't be able to commit to having to be there. But in the last year, I think I've missed about four Thursdays total. So I realized it was more about just not wanting to be tied down to anything. Which I also already knew was a factor. But I realize now it was really the only factor. I just wasn't ready to commit to any duties until now. I can see the value for those who are struggling or new in watching the same people show up week after week, (or night after night) consistently for several months. I know I feel more comfortable when I see some familiar faces amongst the ever-rotating crew. So meet your new Thursday literature person. I wasn't clear if the guy I'm replacing is going to be there this week or not. But I know a couple of people who've had the commitment who I can text or IM and get the low-down on how to access the cupboard and what to do procedurally. We'll see how it goes. I hope to keep the awkward moments to a minimum. But you know there are bound to be some.