I got a lot done today. I like "action me" better than "wander in the park and fret me". This month is the pretty lean, so Christmas is more minimal than ever. The kids though will never notice. They'll still get presents from Santa in their stockings (from Daiso, everything's $1.50), all the activities we normally do in the days leading up to it, presents under the trees. Actually, I'm realizing I'm enjoying Christmas again. I used to think I couldn't enjoy it until I again had plenty of money to spend and someone to share it with. I'm finding that's not true at all this year.
I am happy. Sure, nothing's perfect. I have a few challenges I'm dealing with now. But I'm genuinely happy. I don't need someone to make to make the holidays fun again. And it really is the spirit of the season that makes it special, not the money you spend in celebrating it.
I know it sounds like I've been hitting the Hallmark Channel too hard, but it's true. All this work I've done learning to be enough for myself, is showing up right now. Of course, I'll look forward to the day when I have someone to spend Christmas (and lazy Sunday mornings in bed) with. And money just plain old makes life easier. But it's enough to know that all my friends and family are safe and sound and enjoying their own holiday season. This is a good year.