Tonight's sunset. Got here late, as I was working until 7pm.
I also cleaned the worst of my carpets with my new carpet cleaner today. I can't stand dirty carpets. They were juat cleaned in June, and weren't coming clean anymore via vacuuming.
I felt like Macbeth's wife with the vacuum. "Out, damned spot!" Crazy-making.
Much better with the machine. It didn't take long, and I could finally sit in my apartment without feeling gross every time I looked at the floor.
A few months ago I was meditating, and asked about what was going in on general.
I found myself standing next to a handsome young man. Representing the driving force of the universe. No shirt, dark semi-long hair. He was standing over a model of the world. He looked at me, winked, and said, "Check this out." He picked up the model and shook it. Everything went flying around. I knew that he'd just up-ended everything as I knew it. Quite prophetic, as it turned out.
Today, I saw him again. (Is it wrong that I want to have sex with the Universe? He makes me think of it every time I see him. I used to feel, guilty, but now, I think, "Eh, it's okay. Sex is an energy too. He's very good-looking.) Anyway, today I could see that all of those things that had been shaken up were setttling down and coalescing into a pattern.
I can't see the pattern yet, but I can feel it drawing around me. Fortunately, I'm so beaten into acceptance, I'm content to just watch and see how it unfolds. (Or maybe I'm just exhausted and tomorrow I'll start resisting again. Either way...)
I'll let you know.