I wrote the obligatory Thanksgiving post for FB, and I meant every word. But I'm really thankful for so much more. First of all, I'm grateful for so much upheaval in my life. And I'm grateful that they're all middle-class, first world problems. I have the luxury of worrying about the state of my emotional health, rather than the physical safety of myself or children. That already is so much more than many people have. I'm glad I've finally fully committed myself to sobriety, and the attendant, often at first unpleasant, changes that come with it. My world looks so different than it did a year or even six months ago. I've "lost" friends, released resentment, battled crippling depression, stopped living in the past and plotting the future; and as a result found new joy in my life as it is: healthy, happy children, new friends, a home that I love, riding again (Bareback!! Hard work but so good for strength and confidence), looking forward and planning for the future, but content to let it unfold as it will. Learning from the past, but not blaming it. Life, with all its storms and peaceful interludes, is becoming beautiful again. And I'm starting to see that I am too.