At this moment in time, I'm utterly content. Like an animal, I'm learning to live in the moment. React when there's a reason to. Rest when it's time.
Like my dog right now. It's raining steadily. I have the sliding door to the patio open. No wind. Water falling peacefully from the sky. He's sitting at the threshhold, observing the night.
I had an insanely busy day at work. Intensely focused and ceaselessly calculating.
I will have to step lively tomorrow as well. But for now, I'm living every parent's dream. Children safe and happy elsewhere. Chores done, refreshing drink by the fire, book at hand, dog as faithfully companionable as they come. No duties to fulfill until morning.
I did feel somewhat overwhelmed at work. But I knew all would be well, since it always is. I did what I needed to do. I could have done more. I could have stayed late. (I did catch up on a few emails once at home, but at least I was sitting on my own couch!)
Much to do. But I understand the value of different Nows. That Now was productive. Will move things forward. Will advance my career goals. (Not that I know what they are, I only know I'm headed in the right direction. I had a really funny visual come to me in meditation yesterday. I laughed out loud. I'll tell you sometime.)
This Now is also productive. A time to re-center toward my dreams. A time to read a deliciously non-literary book. I love a good impossible story. That might be the story of my life. I love watching the impossible turn to probable. It's happened more than a few times.
This is a perfect moment. I want nothing other than what I have, right Now. I wish that was always the case. But then I'd be bored. That idea makes this moment even better. Knowing that it's only a moment. I can relax.