Went to LS tonight for the first time in over a month. It was nice to see familiar faces, but I had trouble relating to a lot of the shares.
That's good, I think. My life is so full and busy right now, I felt more impatient than ever with the whole idea, frequently espoused, that God or something outside ourselves is the only thing that can give us a happy life.
Now, you know I do believe there's something beyond this most immediate existence, but I can't bring myself to ascribe to the concept that it, whatever it is, is in charge. There was a lot of talk about being tossed around by life's vagaries.
I used to feel that way, but as I've seen myself change over the last few years, and really acknowledged how much my prejudices, expectations and stories about how I came to be where I was fell away, I don't agree with that view anymore.
I think we create much more of our circumstances than many of us realize. I used to focus on a lot of problems. It was only when I decided they weren't problems, but were, in fact, information about what I *didn't * want, that I was able to change the circumstances of my life. Because I was looking for what I did want.
My relationships with others are different now, because I've finally stepped into my own power, and let other people be and do what they're going to do.
There's a big world to explore out there, but how can you see it if you're always looking at your small world, in the same small way?