I can't figure out if the universe is friend or foe. On Saturday I was cursing my luck. I saw S. Awesome. Always glad to see him. Though he was sitting with someone who was clearly interested in him. I imagine she had reason to believe it's returned. Though thank goodness he wasn't all over her. I'm not ready for that yet. (And we didn't even really date! Clearly I need to get out a lot more.) But, in general, I'm cool(ish) with the whole scenario. I felt somewhat unsettled, but nothing I can't get used to. Actually, there were people there I wanted to catch up with. Naturally, S and girl seemed to be standing wherever I wanted to walk. Awkward!! Because I'm incredibly stubborn, and they weren't standing in such a way that I wouldn't squeeze past them if it was anyone else, I just bit the bullet and proceeded as "normal." EEEEK. Even now I cringe a bit wondering if he thought I was doing it on purpose. No I wasn't. I'm just sometimes unloved by the universe (and loath to change my path out of cowardice.) BUT, the next day, had an awesome time with M. A close childhood companion and my first boyfriend. His Dad was there too, which was fabulous, as he was like a second father to me. Really had a great time. They came to the barn with me, as I needed to turn the horses out. I forgot how good M is with animals. He rode all of my horses when I was younger. He even fondly reminisced about getting tossed off two of them (Two of my horses only really liked me, they tried to get rid of everyone else.) So much fun to catch up with him and his Dad. So that was a lot of consolation for Saturday night's uncomfortable interlude! So the jury's still out. In an ideal world (though I'm not holding my breath, just leaving space for it to happen), S will decide he wants to be friends again and actually enjoy talking to me, more old friends will come out of the woodwork to remind me of how rocking I used to be (and M clearly still thinks I am, flattering!), and I'll win the lottery. But I think all will end up somewhere in the middle. I'm never bored these days. I laugh a lot. Hardly ever cry. Mostly just wait with curiosity for the next unexpected event, and in the meantime I entertain myself with trying to get my sponsor to smile. I'd say the universe is "friend", on balance.