My son didn't have school today (Teacher Work Day), so I had a little tag-along on my errands. He's finding his voice these days, and has definite opinions. He wanted to talk to me about his joining Little League, so he said, "Come, let's sit down and talk about this." Then he sat me down on the couch and took a seat on the opposite couch, and explained why he thought it was time. It was freaking adorable. I was already going to agree, but there's no way I could have refused after that.
We also went swimming in the rain, which is always fun.
I registered my domain name. I have quite a bit of work to do to get the website up and running, but I already have people who've offered to help in exchange for working with my horses, so the marketing aspect is covered by pros. I'm great at networking, but have little experience with marketing.
Every once in a while I would think, am I insane? That was my conditioning from years of doing the expected and the "easy". I seem to be avoiding falling back into old patterns of thinking, for now at least. We all know that I've given a corporate career an honest shot these last few years, and nothing has stuck. I already have the horses and the training, and consultants, and the ideas....now it's a matter of putting it all together, step by step. I have a lot of thoughts about the possibilities, but for once in my life, I'm not future-tripping. I'm focusing on the website right now. I'm also going to focus on part-time or temp gigs to bring in income. I don't really care what they, as long as I get paid. I have a couple of leads, which I'll continue to pursue. (Please let it be real estate development. My life would be complete.)
I've always given 110% to every employer, and they certainly haven't given that back to me. (And I've always worked for small outfits with a principal leader who could have, but didn't.) Now, I'm taking all that energy and concern for a job well done and turning it to my own pursuits.
It feels different than before when I've contemplated it. I've always felt I needed a safety net, that it would come after I'd become comfortable financially. But no net has appeared. More like a ancient rope to cling to and hope it holds up. So might as well use all that energy and knowledge to create my own dream life. One step at a time, but running, not walking.