Tonight's sunset. Good to be home again. And glad to have to wear a jacket! I'm in a strange mood tonight. Restless, apprehensive, but calm and excited. (See why it's strange?) I think it's because I'm finally coming together again after many years of losing pieces of myself. So gradually I didn't notice 'til they came back to me again. Like looking down and remembering that I have an arm, and I hadn't realized it was missing until I saw it was there. Just in time too. So many new things are happening in my life (mostly around work, but not all), that my focus is shifting from the old paradigm to a new one, of which I don't yet fully see the structure. All I have is hard-won faith in myself. Except when I don't. My life right now feels like this post. Swirling around with iridescent fog, which lifts once in a while to reveal the next step, whether it's forward or a course correction. I've spent so long "needing" to know what was going to happen next, in order to brace myself for the next disaster; that letting go and flowing with Life is actually confusing. And scary. But exciting. And strangely comforting. All that "worry" energy freed up to wander the world on new adventures. It's disorienting. Hold me. And tell me I'm doing great...whoever I am now. I guess we'll find out. Stay tuned.