Ha! I've typed that last phrase so many times, auto-correct just puts it in automatically. I like my little ritual. Though tonight I missed the prettiest part of the sunset. Well, I saw it, my camera didn't.
So after moping around a bit this morning, I took a walk, which didn't help, but at least I did something good for me.
Then I made some phone calls for work, arranged some meetings and phone conferences and made lunch plans with a banker. I felt much better. Busywork and people who are always glad to hear from me was just what I needed.
Work is finally picking up. I spent much of August sulking (or more kindly, coming up with a new plan of attack). I decided to focus on fostering relationships with other lenders so I can broker the deals myself.
I'll always give my comapny first crack at it, but if they can't do it directly, and it needs to be brokered, I need more control over managing the client/lender communication. In this business, the fewer layers between borrower and lender the better. (It's written into my employment contract that I can take clients anywhere I want. I'm not being sneaky. In fact, I always tell my supervisor when I meet a lender he might be able to take clients to.)
So, having fun with my job again. And also made plans with a couple of girlfriends for this weekend.
Less sad now.