Excuses, excuses... I guess its in my nature to start things and not finish them. Its part of my ADD... I get bored, think of something crazy, get 50% through it and then forget it. This is a recurring theme in my life. There was the book I was going to write(probably around 6 different books by now), the restaurant I was going to open(the BBQ place, the coffee house, the hot dog shop), the car I was going to restore(but never even bought), and the languages I was going to learn(Spanish 9 years, French 3 years, Japanese 2 years, Italian 1 year, Gaelic 1 year). Most of these were actually somewhat solid ideas (if I say so myself), but my mind jumps to the next thing so fast that I have a hard time going back.
As an artist this has caused a lot of issues. I have countless paintings that I never finished and 3D models only half started. In painting I tend to lean towards the abstract and impressionist styles. These have always helped me finish the paintings due to their simplicity. This aligned with my emotional side as well. I don't care for details when I'm worked up, and when I'm expressing my own emotions, I have a hard time being limited to specific shapes and details.
Even in this one post here I've found myself wandering a few times. I've worked hard to get my mind on track over the years. I quit taking medication in High School and had to do backflips to focus my mind after that. I developed compensating techniques. I make lists, I make spreadsheets to track all aspects of projects I work on. I also try to limit extra sensory inputs. If I'm working on details, no TV or music with words in it.
Anyways, there are a lot of things that run through my mind at once, and recently I've decided to stop trying to stop it. I still make my lists, because if I didn't then the things I'm working on would scatter into disarray. And I still CAN focus, but in the end, I was stopping my mind from doing what it needs to. I get bored, because things are boring, and in order to live, I need to keep things spontaneous. At work this leads to innovation in process, at home it means that I end up swimming in the pretend river in the hallway with my 3 year old, or end up chasing him for an hour around the house when I should be doing something else. In doing this I've been much happier, I hate structure, and I'm finally throwing it out.