The ultimate question I keep having to face is, does an other exist? It can't ever be certain and only faith can make that connection.
If I choose no, I can be a master of my world with free will unchained. Or, if it's chained, within the length of my chain I have free reign.
If I choose yes, I still have free will within the length of my chain. But I also have morality. And there are some choices better for the whole but maybe not better for me.
A free will with no connection to any others or a free will that is obligated to follow morality but isn't alone.
Choosing no can increase the pleasure I feel. Yes isn't quite the same.
Both feel suffering. It can't be avoided.
But yes, it can feel joy.
Joy is the only thing that beats suffering.
And it has to be shared. It only exists in the sharing.
But I can never be certain it's true. It may just be a story. But seeing as I am just a character, a player, what could be more real? What's more real than it's all in your head?