i forgot to drink water since brunch and now it's 7:30pm
intermittent updates are back in BIG WAY. recently I've been taking notes in class on my laptop, which has been both liberating and also high-key dangerous for my study habits - I am a quick typer, top of my class for all of elementary school (chalk up that win to type wizard and long lonely hours at home hunched over a keyboard), so I can keep up with the professor on any topic as long as it's in english and doesn't require a lot of equations which SPEAKINg as an econ major
DOES NOT HAPPEN A LOT!!
I really believe college is the place to unlearn dumb shit you accrued throughout your 18 years traipsing on this earth (give or take a few years, shoutout to my untraditionally educated friends, scholars, tributes, rivals out there) and I'm glad, so glad to say that I've found the perfect class to really rinse out this gunk from my brain. It's a history class on Marx by this professor who wears three watches, two on his left wrist and a fitbit on his right, and his fitbit tells time so don't try to tell me it's not a watch. So far he has taught me how to pronounce dialectic and i'm excited to learn more. There is a lot more stuff I have gotten out of his 30-person lecture in a cramped, stiflingly hot room, but as I can't remember them I'm sure they're inconsequential (things he may have mentioned - Marxist philosophy, Marx's history, his context, family life, etc, all boring trivial stuff ofc ofc ofc)
So many good things have happened this week! Yesterday I finished an application to study abroad in florence for ~40 days which i'm lowkey HYPED about but I haven't told anyone about yet b/c
b) what if i don't get in and i'm embarrassed
c) SAS part 3?????? who knows i have extraordinarily poor luck w studying abroad!!!
today I'm going to finish my PST application, which is for a major i'm really excited about but who knows if I'll get in because competition is stiffer than a plank of birch reinforced with steel and also even if I do get in what if I don't like the people in my class....... hhhmmmmmmmmmmMMMMM........................ in any case still feels good to get something out of the way as that is one less cloud hanging over me, and the sun in this metaphor would be i suppose the summer coming up??? or perhaps amsterdam in three days' time??????
tune in nexxxt week for the adventures that Evelyn and I will be getting into in mother europe, big mama colonizer, white people central, cold place, pretty place, amsterdam place!!!!