Recognizing your own voice in a world shouting at you is one of the most difficult and life changing events that will ever happen to you.
The recognition that the thoughts you have inside were not your own, and were probably transplanted by your family, your friends, your favorite characters on TV and novels, and the group consciousness of people around you, will point you to the truth of your own voice.
This begins to happen, only when you decide to shut your mind off into silence within. The silence within begins to purify the creeks and crevices of your mind, dusting off old memories, events and emotions surrounding a particular event, to be witnessed and thrown into the silence that is ever present within. In that silence, there is peace and contentment.
When you open your eyes, and look back into the world, you see the world through this silence, with a silent mind, and a pure and open heart. The beauty of the world is now reflected purely for what it is. Green is green now. Red is red. Violent, violent. The world appears as it is.
When this has been established, and when you look back at what you are doing, all of a sudden, you are shocked to see that all this time, you were following the patterns of thought set by someone else with their own agenda. The volume of the TV media begins to be toned down. The impact of the youtube videos, suddenly seems to come from an ulterior motive of its creator. The publishing industries tricks to pull you into their vast web of consumerism and attention grabbing for their ad revenues comes into view. All of a sudden, you find yourself asking the question, what is it that I am doing here in this website?
Then you go deep within. You try to search for the thought patterns that preceded your actions. Your experiences in life. Your friends. The people. The things you believed in you had to be to be happy. The 6 pack. The big boobs. The perfect ass. That ray ban shade. The Gucci bag. All of them comes into your view. Consumerism is the easiest pattern that comes into view. Especially since it is coming from a place of lack within. The search for happiness seems to come from this empty place which you have to fill with things that seems to match a particular pattern that you simply weren't aware of in the first place.
In that clarity, you begin to view your life differently. You begin to see the beliefs that have been driving you. Your actions. Your words. Your time. The beliefs come into view, and they are questioned to the source of them all. The beliefs placed in your mind by your parents are more closer to yourself. The beliefs placed in your own mind by your community is more vague and part of a group mentality. The beliefs placed in your mind by being virtue of a citizen of a particular nation so as to go along the common narrative that is prevalent right now established by corporate media to prolong the culture that benefits the few at the expense of many. All of these come into view very quickly.
However, the ones that will catch you by your balls, and will make your heart gasp, is the story that you have been telling to yourself all this time. The story that you have been narrating to yourself, as to why you had to do this. As to why you were supposed to do this. The story around your own life, that begins to suddenly become nothing more than just a simple fucking story, that you have been telling to yourself... So that you could avoid feeling that pain, that sense of loss, that joy of your own being and success, and most of all, feeling vulnerable to a life that is open to the darkness of infinite possibilities.
At this point my friend, you are silent. You are a witness. To the wonder that you call your life. From here on out, The silence within is a rock that is sailing across the ocean of life, breaking every wave that falls upon it.
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