29th of May, 2015 3:20 am PST
Time is at an enjoyable standstill. I have been home since the 16th.
I see that time has done circus acts with my friends, or rather my perceptions of them. My friend I was staying with, Stacey, admitted she's in love with me. And she is still in depression since her father died last year.
Celeaste, two weeks after I gave way and spoke to her, invited me to her house, but I couldn't make it since I was out. Of course I tried to speak with her after, insisting on how I "yearned for her presence" but of course, a young fool's mistake.
She said there'd be another chance within three days...
On Memorial Day, I found out she either deactivated her account or blocked me on Facebook.
Since I have deactivated three times before, I know that it is a possibility she is going through some sadness and doesn't feel like talking to me. At the same time, she has the "cryptic" bio 09/07/14 [revolving hearts] emoji on her bio.
I'm guessing she's in love with that guy Chris or Gus or maybe a girl or nothing. So I am leaving her alone for now. I have pretty much given up on love or a powerful friendship.
I am getting back to reading soon, as in this-week-soon.
My mother is still a diabetic-insomniac who binges at night, though she risks her life given these habits and a few years time.
My sister, who I found out has failed in HS, is moving to New Mexico with my aunt (my back-up plan) in August.
I have been to two job interviews but I am not looking as hard as I should be.
I should be hitting the fucking pavement, if I really want to move out.
What advice do I have for you, Reader?
Well, you are only given this one moment.
You live life built off these moments. Watch this for some philosophy :
PBS IDEA CHANNEL "Hell is quoting other people" video
People do not seem to understand that any moment someone could die
or it could all end.
So, DO NOT STRESS! Meditate, exercise by push-ups and running, and eat well.
Sleep even better. Read some, and love a lot, but NEVER OBSESS!