October 30th 2016
I have recently found myself in a mood where everything is grey.
I seem to be in a dream reality where my moods are static but constantly trying to reverse that.
i am in control, certainly; i never lost control. However, I seem to be more in control of my destiny than previously thought. In fact, acknowledging that i am in control of my own destiny has given immense meaning to my own body of work. I think that I will continue not caring what people think of my self-expression but rather i will continue it, no matter the cost.
I am in love with Enlighten Me by the band Grouplove; it partially defines how I feel at this time but in such a particular way as to explain it.
The mind is everywhere, constantly fooling itself that it is the true center, but I know that the true center is everywhere at once. You must choose to be your own center. You must invent your own interests and follow them because if not, then you succumb to the chaotic nature of the universe.
Focus, patience, knowledge, curiosity, imagination, these are the most valuable traits to develop in Life.
If you wish to be a designer, a poet, an artist, musical or pictorial, an architect, anyone really, you must develop those traits with you individuality in mind constantly. Any tones, shades, hues you gravitate toward will be reflected in you work but you must push what you do with them, inventing novel ways to express them. Life itself is a competitive self-expression of higher and lower states of energy.
I will continue as my own captain, boss, CEO, president of consciousness until I find someone who takes it from me in the most beautiful of all ways, someone who makes me eternal in a moment. My anima.