feeling really anxious because i ate a cinnabon, pizza, and three chicken wings today. a cinnabon is worth all of the calories i should consume for the day! not to mention that i ate so well this morning. why did i overindulge? i had oatmeal from yesterday, toborgee and rice, and vegan broccoli and spinach soup for dinner. i feel the heaviness of the obsessive thoughts beginning to take their toll on me. even while i was heating up the second half of the cinnabon, i was thinking "don't do this. you don't need it. you don't even really want it. you're just eating it, just because it tastes good. you're going to regret this." even as i ate it, i regretted it. i couldn't enjoy it because i was so angry with myself. from now on, i shouldn't indulge so much. and when i do indulge it will actually feel good, instead of bad. ill feel like i deserve to indulge, instead of punishing myself by indulging for whatever sick reason.