I'm gonna vent now.
This week I am feeling back to my old self in a mostly positive way. Back to work, been editing comic scripts a little. My foot that I twisted a month ago is finally almost 100% healed. My kid is officially enrolled in preschool. I made a big life decision and am living with the results. I went to the lady-parts doctor and had my IUD taken out. The Doc said to wait two full months before trying to get pregnant, so that's what me and the husband are going to do.
I told the boyfriend about it and he reacted well. And then not so well. And then back to mostly good again, causing me to feel more neutral than warm towards him. While discussing this weirdness with the husband he got some kind of macho panic and worried that I would regret having kids with him if it threw a wrench into my relationship with the boyfriend.
This is not the case, though it does cause me to call a lot of interactions with the boyfriend into question. I never want the people I care about to be mutually exclusive. I decided to have kids with my husband on the belief that I would not have to sacrifice the poly part of myself to do so. Both guys want to be supportive in every way: it's my body, it's my choice. But they have feelings and I'm not out to hurt anyone. I wish I could go into the future to see how this all works out and then have older, wiser me come back and tell me of the now how to proceed.