I was going to go month to month about the big events of the year, but they were depressing.
Suffice it to say that I really tried in 2014. I have a hard time being vulnerable and open. I have commitment issues. In 2014, I really tried and became all those things - I became vulnerable to being hurt. I opened myself to change. I committed to someone, someone for whom I cared a great deal.
And for that I had a warm winter, a beautiful spring, an uncertain summer, and well, Fall was devastating.
I was devastated. That word comes from Latin, and it means to thoroughly lay waste. "Thoroughly" is part of the word. All parts of my life were affected. Lay waste is also part of the word. The entire year became suspect and/or up for debate.
It was (and is) horrible. But it's also so 2014. And in about 14 hours, it won't be 2014 anymore. The calendar is arbitrary. We know this, and yet every new year does feel like something new, and some place where we can build something new.
So, here's to lessons learned, friendships tested (and validated), connections made, connections broken, hurt feelings and undiscovered country. It made not sound as nice as other people's greetings at this time of year, but this is what I say:
Let's do it all over again. But better.