Time Travel Sucks
by Marty McConnell
I thought it was a good idea. I volunteered…
The opportunity of a lifetime, go back and fix your mistakes. Re-do the last 20 years. Who wouldn't jump at that opportunity? I thought I could repair a relationship with a girl I used to know. I thought if I could just stop myself from walking out that night, everything would be fixed. I could prevent a mistake that cost me half of my adult life, searching.
I did it. I jumped in. I didn't think about things like finishing school, doing that senior project all over again… pumping gas.
I didn't think about the fact that certain things were harder back then. You look back on your life, think how easy it was, making all those stupid mistakes, getting into trouble, and how you would have done things differently. You don't stop to think that perhaps it really wasn't working, and if I hadn't left, then she would have.
Now I have twenty years to relive. Sure, I know what's coming. I know the towers will fall in New York. I know about the gulf disaster. I know about all the things that never really impacted my life the way I thought. I made such a big deal of those events the first time around, but I know people will recover and heal. Once again I'm alone, and I feel it from the head of a twenty-year-old. I can't even get a bottle of Jack to drown my sorrows, because I'm too young. I can tell nobody the things I know. I just have to relive it, and hope for the best.